The Beauty Bias Part 3
I now weigh a whopping 110 pounds. I eat three meals a day and boy does that feel good. I have also started giving away some of my designer stuff. I don’t really need all of that. Now I know that my beauty doesn’t come from the outside, but from the inside.
But I have made so much progress. My grades are going up. I now have As and Bs and it is only because I have actually been paying attention and doing my homework! I am actually smart!!!
I broke up with my boyfriend and it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would have been. He just walked away and said that I was a waste anyway. That did hurt, but I know that he doesn’t love me the same way that Jesus does, so my heart doesn’t hurt as much. I still regret the choices that I made while I was dating, but I am slowly learning that God can restore me. For now I am choosing to not date. Crazy, right?!
I talked with my parents and told them how I feel. They even listened to me! They apologized for what they had missed in my life. They might even go to church with me. It isn’t perfect, but at least we are trying to be a family.
My “friends” completely ignore me now. I guess I know now that we were never really friends to begin with. But I have gained an amazing friend that I would never trade for one million popular girls. Allie and I really connect. I feel like I have known her my entire life.
You would think I would be depressed by my change of lifestyle: popular to unpopular, but I am actually happier than I have ever been. Now I have eternal love. I have an eternal beauty living inside my heart. There is nothing biased about that.
I feel like I finally know the real me. I have dreams and goals that I never knew I had. I want to study and do well. I want to be a good friend. But most of all I want to know Jesus better than anyone else.
Thanks for reading this three-part story. While the characters and situations were fictional, this story does represent how many girls feel. Just as Laura learned in the story, Jesus really does love you for you. He can give you an eternal beauty–not a biased beauty. If you need anything or any help down this journey of life-change, just send me an e-mail at [email protected].